I’ve realized, just today that I’m alone.  The friends I thought I had aren’t friends at all.  It’s my obsession they tell me.  Ha!  My obsession with what?  Wanting to be a better man?  Wanting to help someone who can still be a better man?  The boy has spoken to my heart and I cannot deny that my purpose is to bear with his outbreaks, his rage, his fits of anger increase each time I see him.  Can men truly interact with other men without the need to control others factoring into the circumstances?  Only time will tell but for now I know one thing and only that one thing: I AM ALONE.  No one can understand.  They will not try.  They only manipulate and pressure.  Goad and scheme.  I will proceed alone as opposed to becoming part of the chess match.  I am not a pawn and though egos of men seemingly preclude them from acting as honorable human beings I can only be affected by allowing them to believe they are a part of my life.  My existence.  They are NOT.  Or at least they will not be very soon.  I travel tomorrow to visit the boy again.  These recent experiences only serve to raise doubt in my own mind – do they taint me with their usury and guile?  I cannot let this happen.  Such being the case, I will eliminate them from my circle.  THEY cannot be trusted…never again.  My work will continue.I remain who I and I alone can be,

Wayne Noyes-Goode”